Chapter 34
Shane’s POV
“I want you to touch me, Shane”
“I’m going to teach you everything. I’m going to fucking ruin you and spoil you in so many dirty ways”
“Shane… Oh, fuck!”
Squeezing my eyes shut, I groaned and pressed my head against the locker. I think I’m going insane. I keep hearing her voice in my head and whenever I remember those words, they do something to me. Something I can’t seem to understand.
Even after she left last night, I could still feel her presence in my room. I could still hear her saying those words and cursing my name. I could still feel her hands on my body and her fingers digging into my back. I could still feel everything, even now.
It’s insane, isn’t it?
How one could just come from nowhere and invade your peace of mind. Now, all I can think of is her.
My bedroom smells like her and even after taking a long shower three consecutive times, it still couldn’t erase the smell and feel of her. They made my inside ache and burn for more.
“Shane!!!” Layla’s voice broke in, jerking me out of my thoughts. “I’ve been calling for hours, are you alright?”
I paused for a few seconds “I’m alright”
“Doesn’t sound true to me”
I sighed and opened my locker to pick out my notebook and textbook. “I… I said I’m fine”
For the first time in my life, I wished she’d stay away from me. Something was going on with me and I didn’t feel like being around anyone, not even my best friend.
“Look, if this is about Kade, you know you can always tell me about it.” She stretched her hand to touch my arm but I moved away immediately. It happened so fast that I didn’t realize it until I looked up to see the shocked expression on her face.
“Are you… Are you sure you’re okay?”
“Look, I’m… I’m sorry but I need to go”
“Shane, what’s going on? Wait… Wait…”
But before she could say more, I was gone already without looking back to see the expression on her face or apologize for acting weird. I just needed to be alone.
***
During the English and Statistics class, I tried not to think about Renee or even spare her a glance. It was one of the hardest decisions I tried to make but sadly, it didn’t work cause she kept appearing in my head.
Her words, her touch, her voice, everything.
As I stared at her, I wondered if she ever thought about me and the things she was doing to me. I’m sure she didn’t. Does she even care? I suddenly felt mad at myself. I shouldn’t have let this happen. I shouldn’t have let her come close.
Dad was shocked last night and I could tell he was disappointed in me. I’ve never seen him look at me the way he did. I’ve always been the good boy who followed all the rules and made him proud but I guess that has changed and I hated myself for it.
I even lied to his face and felt good about it.
“Shane, are you alright?” Mr. Hunter asked, tapping me gently on the shoulder.
“Yes… Yes, I’m alright” I answered and lowered my head, not wanting to look at the class who were now staring at me. I could also feel her eyes on me and that gave me shivers. It made my cheeks burn.
“Help us solve the equation on the board, will you?” No, I didn’t want to.
I sat quietly and kept staring at the figures on the board without making a move. I knew the answer to the question by merely looking at it but I couldn’t bring myself to walk up to the board.
“Shane?”
“I can’t walk, I’m sorry”Content rights belong to NôvelDrama.Org.
Everyone in the class gasped and even the teacher looked shocked. I didn’t want to be around anyone and if I had my way, I’d sprint out of the school like my life depends on it.
“I’ll solve it” Layla’s voice broke in. “I think Shane is not in a good spirit today”
Mr. Hunter looked at me through the rim of his glasses and nodded in response. “I’ll let him pass because I believe he’s not in a good spirit today. Make sure you meet me after the class. Is that clear, Mr. Dalton?”
***
After meeting with Mr. Hunter, I grabbed my backpack and walked out of the class. I needed a quiet place to stay and the only place that came to my mind was the garden.
Gosh, I needed a break. Everything was happening too fast and I was surely losing it.
“Shane… Shane!” Once I heard the voice from behind me, I froze. Of course, I knew that voice very well. I could easily recognize it because it has been haunting me.
“Fuck, why do you walk so fast?” She asked, panting heavily and without waiting for her to get any closer, I walked off. This time, faster than I’ve ever walked.
I needed to be far away from her.
“Yo, pussy!” She yelled and ran after me. At that moment, I felt like breaking into a run but something held me back as she circled the corner and came to stand in front of me.
She glared at me with those bewitching blue eyes of hers and I felt my lower half growl hard. Geez, what’s happening to me? I didn’t use to be like this and I never felt this way before her. With all this happening, I couldn’t help but feel ashamed of myself. Ashamed that I was letting her affect me so much.
“What do you want?”
Her blue eyes widened. “You, dumbass. I wanna talk to you”
“Well, you’re talking” Even with how hard I tried to control myself, I could still feel my heart’s palpitation as the blood flow increased in my veins.
“What now? Are you mad at me?” She asked and crossed her arms “Don’t you dare forget how you fucking squeezed the hell out of my butt last night”
I grimaced and turned to walk away. Christ, how does she say these things so easily? Like they were nothing and very pleasant? Well, she didn’t have to remind me of that because I had it taped all over my head.
“Please, stop talking to me… Stop… Stop following me”
“Why? But you did it anyway” She yelled behind me and I noticed the students who stopped to stare at us. They must be wondering what was happening and it made me really nervous. “Look, I just want us to fucking talk”
“What’s going on here?” I heard Layla’s voice from behind and squeezed my eyes shut, thanking the stars. “Shane, what did you do and what do you guys wanna talk about?”
I turned to look at them, especially at Renee. This was all her fault. If she had let me be, I wouldn’t be avoiding my best friend and everyone else.
I wouldn’t be at the bridge of losing my mind over the short skirt she’s wearing right now because I couldn’t even look at her without remembering how she was on top of me last night. I could still feel her straddling my thighs and my fingers digging into…
Holy Christ, don’t tell me this is happening again.
I shook my head in frustration and walked off without looking back. I could hear Layla calling out to me and pleading for me to wait but I didn’t. I could also hear Renee snapping at the students and asking what they were staring at.
As much as I wanted to shut her out, my body still craved her touch, and yearned to hear her cursing my name once again. “Oh, fuck, Shane” That did so much to me.
***
The next day in school, I felt a lot better and decided to approach Layla. I’d apologize for being such a jerk the previous day and I’d apologize for lying to her too. She’s my best friend and it hurts that I had broken our promise not to keep secrets from each other.
“Hey, have you heard the news?” Theo asked, walking beside me. I guess he just arrived at school.
“Nope and I don’t care about it. Where’s Layla?”
“Just like you, she’s been a little off lately but we can talk about that later. There’s something more important you need to know”
“Tell me”
He took a deep breath and leaned closer. ” Kendall and Kyle are back in Carnation High”
My heartbeat seized as I stared at him in shock. Wait, what? How did it happen? Why did they return? They left two years ago and that had been the best years of my life but now, they’ve returned?
“I heard they got back with their family a week ago.” Theoden added and gritted his teeth. Just like me, he looked scared and for some reason, he was angry too.
“Oh, here they come.” Theo added, glaring behind me. Instantly, a ball hit the back of my head and without turning, I knew who was responsible for it. I didn’t need anyone to say the name.
“Shane!!!” Kendall yelled and before I knew it, I felt her hands wrapped around my stomach. She always did this even when she knew how much I disliked being touched “God, I missed you so much!”
“Hey asshole” Kyle called out and I turned to look at him standing with both hands tucked inside his trouser pocket. Just like me, he was tall and muscular but the hate in his eyes didn’t change a bit “Get me the fucking ball right now”